i haven’t been eating right since monday.
the last meal i can remember was yesterday’s lunch.
i think about 10 pcs of chips from maccas.
i had a bottle of apple juice and a medium sized cola.
and a panadol.

and hey…i’ve lost weight!
it’s not healthy…but i’m kinda happy about this weight lost…
is that weird?

i’ve been hearing there’s a silver lining in everything.
and this i am positive is one of ‘em.
getting your heartbroken is not so bad after all.

the worst feeling i will ever feel.
i feel used.
so very much so, i feel nauseated everytime i think about it.

i never thought i was that bad of a person that one could feel it’s ok to use me that way.
to string me along…all the time.
to treat me like a toy u put in the storage…
if u don’t like the new one, u can always whip me out.

and suddenly.
u dropped me.
so quick to get rid of me.
u must really like the new toy.

i still wish u got rid of me a long time before…
when i threw myself away…
u wanted me back and brushed me clean…
i thought u wanted to keep me….but that was never the case.

i’m not sad u found someone new,
i’m sad because you used me so….

though it brings me so much sadness to be used that way…
i do wish u all the happiness.
i’m going to brace myself for what is next.
i have a strong feeling it is going to be big.
like wedding bells big.
i’m happy u’ve found someone but i can never forget that feeling.
that horrible feeling of being used.
i hope u have really changed..
for her sake.
not yours.

So many gods,
So many creeds,
So many paths
that wind and
wind and wind,
While but the art of being kind,
Is all this sad world needs.
-Anon.

this heavy heart is just weighing me down.

why do i keep feeling so sad?

patut lah.
it’s all so clear now.

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i don’t know why…
but it seems that my life is kinda sucking by the day!

after a rough week (of bashing and being jobless)
today i lost my stylus…from that new camera i got…
i got a bit upset…well maybe a whole lot upset..
it’s only been 2 weeks and i’ve already lost it.
i’m generally not this careless.
and this what has made me upset most.
well a lot’s been going on…and this just made my week worse.

i never thought i would ever know what depression feels like.
i think i am right now…
i am majorly upset.

where are u luck?

heavy heart is a broken heart.

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didn’t know it was so hard to get someone’s address!

it is also hard to colour/paint your right nails when ur a righty…